Monday, February 17, 2014


Confession: I've really been struggling lately. I lost about 60 pounds last year (260-200ish) but have pretty much been staying around 200 since October or so. I don't know why I've stopped losing. Well, yes I do. I've stopped tracking my food, my exercise has died off (I was running like 3-4 times a week, now it's been two weeks without a workout and I'm supposed to do a 5K on my 33rd birthday in two weeks) and I am just ambivalent right now. And frustrated. I got on the scale this morning and it was up about five pounds, and I know it has to be water weight, but it made me tempted to resort to ED behaviors to combat my feelings on that.

I don't know if it's this winter or what, but I need spring to come soon. I miss the outdoors, I miss fresh fruit and veggies and farmers markets, I miss sunshine, I miss feeling good about myself. I feel like I'm just hanging on right now, waiting for warmer temperatures and all of this damn snow to melt.

come back to me, my love


  1. This winter has been terrible - the worst since I moved to central PA, and one of the worst in my memories (saying a lot since I grew up with lake effect snow up in Pennsyltucky). I have been struggling, too - I've been forcing myself to run in the snow since I have a race coming up, but before that I was doing workout videos at home, and that helped a bit with keeping me from being completely sluggish. My eating could still be a bit better, though :/

  2. I definitely think winter is part of the issue. And plateaus are pretty normal even if they suck, but I hope you feel more motivated soon. Oh, and go easy on yourself--this shit is hard.