Struggling.

Confession: I've really been struggling lately. I lost about 60 pounds last year (260-200ish) but have pretty much been staying around 200 since October or so. I don't know why I've stopped losing. Well, yes I do. I've stopped tracking my food, my exercise has died off (I was running like 3-4 times a week, now it's been two weeks without a workout and I'm supposed to do a 5K on my 33rd birthday in two weeks) and I am just ambivalent right now. And frustrated. I got on the scale this morning and it was up about five pounds, and I know it has to be water weight, but it made me tempted to resort to ED behaviors to combat my feelings on that.

I don't know if it's this winter or what, but I need spring to come soon. I miss the outdoors, I miss fresh fruit and veggies and farmers markets, I miss sunshine, I miss feeling good about myself. I feel like I'm just hanging on right now, waiting for warmer temperatures and all of this damn snow to melt.

come back to me, my love

It's back: FMM!

Haven't done one of these in awhile. So, here we go.

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Random Questions

1. Did you watch the Super Bowl?  If so, what was your favorite part?  Nope, didn't watch the big sportsball recital. I actually watched a whole bunch of episodes of FaceOff after I watched Puppy Bowl. And I fell asleep at the end of it. Oh well.

I may or may not be wearing a keyboard cat t-shirt today.

2. What is the weather like where you live?  Cold and we got dumped on with snow yesterday. And now they are calling for MORE snow, topped with ice tonight. Fannnnnnnnnntastic.

3. When is your birthday?  March 1. Less than a month!

4. Do you prefer sparkling water or flat water?  Flat. But I do like that fizzy flavored water stuff. Yum.

5. How many hours did you sleep last night? 6.5 or so. 

6. What is your favorite day of the week?  Saturday. I get to sleep, go to the market and see my brother and parents, and Saturday seems to be the night that I get to see the guy I'm dating.

7. If you had to choose between riding a bike or swimming, which would you choose?  Swimming. I LOVE SWIMMING.

8. How often do you eat red meat?  Not too often. Maybe once a week or so?

Though I do plan to partake of bacon cheeseburger dip this weekend. NOM.

9. What time did you wake up this morning? 5:45ish. Zzzz.

10. Do you have any goals for the week?  Get my homework done well and on time.

NBD, just rocking life.

Oh hey. I have a blog.

I'm still here. I haven't fallen off the wagon. Sure, I plateaued for about 3 months right around 203 pounds, but I made it through the holidays and guess what?

I'm under 200 pounds for the first time in 5 years. I'm wearing size 16 jeans, and a L/XL shirt. I recommitted on January 2nd and the holiday pounds have been coming off slowly but surely.

I feel AWESOME.

This is what I have been up to since my last post, in early October, starting from now and going backwards.

Holy crap, skinny jeans. Who am I.

And way back when, I said to myself that if I ever got below 200 pounds (and mentally added AND STAYED THERE), I would cut my hair.

So.

(This was actually early December, but I knew that the holidays were going to be a pain in the butt so I waited until last weekend.)

Before.

10 inches gone. I'm donating it to Children With Hairloss.

Straightened-ish.

Natural.

My friend Emerald got me hooked on Korean dramas and I have been binge watching them.

I've  been seeing a fantastic guy for about 3 1/2 months now. He's awesome.

I got my house all kinds of rearranged and even set up a home office in my front bedroom.

Because I've gone back to school and am working on my master's degree.

I had Ethiopian food and it was AMAZING.

I had an amazing brunch with my beautiful friend at the Hotel Hershey.

I had some amazing Korean food.

I baked a LOT over Christmas.

I ran an entire 5K with said beautiful friend in Virginia in early December. I may or may not have blasted the Rocky theme song from my cell phone.

I ran a Turkey Trot on Thanksgiving morning.

I did the Color Run in Baltimore in November with a group of fantastic ladies, including Holly from Mama Bear Blogs.

I took an archery class and have horrible form and need a better bra.

That's what I've been up to. I swear I'm going to try to be better about posting here.